The entrepreneurial life can be exhilarating.
Receiving your first payment, landing a first client, landing a first BIG client – these experiences can rarely be matched by anything the corporate world can offer. Then this whole new social network/internet/mobile landscape just takes that experience and injects it with WWE-level steroids.
There is so much to do. People to connect with. Ideas to pursue. Strategies to try. Clients to land.
It can be addictive.
Almost everything addictive is dangerous.
Startups – NOT an exception.
The past 12 months have been such a whirlwind as far as my entrepreneurial career is concerned. There has been a plethora of Blessings. Apart from STORM, which has been growing even more, I co-founded 3 more firms. I started this blog. I meet 3-4 new passionate entrepreneurs every Saturday morning, engaging them in lively conversation. In the evening I work on blogposts and connect to people online. It is exhilarating. It is addictive.
It is dangerous.
Last night, my wife finally told me how she was feeling. How she’s been feeling very happy and excited at how I’ve grown in my career, but a bit worried about how we’ve also started to grow apart a bit.
I felt like Bruce Willis at the end of Sixth Sense, when he realized everything through flashbacks.
What an idiot I was. I was doing something I swore I’d never do – I had been taking my wife for granted. I’d really rather work as a sewer cleaner and be with her than be the world’s greatest entrepreneur and not be by her side – so my actions were getting misaligned with what I truly deemed essential.
It then slowly dawned on me – I was so focused on this one part of my life that I started taking the other parts for granted: time with the rest of my family, connecting with my parents, my efforts to get back to running, writing more songs as a music minister, spending more time with God through prayer. That last one was a zinger. I had been so appreciative of the gifts, when I should’ve been much more appreciative of the Giver.
Balance. I was losing it for awhile. Instead of running startups, they were starting to run me.
I will do better.